My Spiritual Journey
Who I am, I have always been. What is in me, has always been there…a seed planted before I came here, waiting to take root, grow, and blossom into its most vibrant bloom. I grew up in a family where Espiritismo (traditional Puerto Rican spiritualism) was in my roots but had skipped a generation. My paternal grandmother was a known practitioner who actively practiced Espiritismo, but I was estranged from my father’s side of the family. My maternal family, although technically Catholic by birth, was not religious…my great grandmother was an Espiritista, but the art had been lost with her. My mother was a seeker and recognized the seeker in me…it was she who gave me my first deck of Tarot cards at 14. In her search, she eventually became Muslim. She pushed me to become Muslim when I was 17, and I had no immediate objection, so I did.
I didn’t delve deeply into the religion until my late 20s, and from 2012-2016, I became a fully practicing Muslim. Yet, no matter how much I tried to convince others (and myself) that it was the “right” path, I personally never felt fulfilled. During that time, manifestations did not come to fruition and blessings were battles. Life was a struggle, and it felt as though no matter how many of the religious “rules” I followed, I was not rewarded in kind. I grew weary, and the practices that were supposed to bring me life actually felt very draining. The things that were supposed to uplift me, felt as though they were dragging and weighing me down. This feeling of emptiness and lack of fulfilment sent me on a spiritual quest. This was the beginning of a journey to unlearn what I had learned and discover my own spiritual truth, separate from what everyone else around me told me I “should” be.
I found my way back to Espiritismo, the way of my ancestors that blended African, Taino, and Spanish traditions. I learned from a Madrina (“Godmother” – a spiritual elder) and from a friend who had grown up in the tradition over the next few years. Most importantly, I learned the way of my ancestors, and the importance of honoring and maintaining the sacred link to my genetic, spiritual , and cosmic bloodlines. Through my lineage, I unearthed my own truth and began to understand the depths of who I really was. During this journey, I also began to unearth many layers of self-discovery. Diving deep into the ancient arts of astrology, numerology, and anything else that would help me to better understand my own journey. Knowledge of self, on every level, empowered me and set me free.
I began to unlock a vault of blessings that had been stored up, waiting for me to claim them. The more aligned I became with the path of my soul, the more I was able to manifest. Suddenly, my cries to the Universe were heard, and I began to receive. Piece by piece, my life became the vision I had only imagined. Where I had previously given up hope, convinced that certain things were just not for me and would never be a part of my life, I now became filled with a joy and contentment that has been surreal and magical. But most importantly, I am filled with peace.
So here I am, six years after unraveling that thread, having fully embraced my destiny as an Espiritista of the New Earth paradigm. My life is filled with my wildest dreams come true – things that I used to wish for, have now become my reality. I learned through my journey that everyone’s truth is different, that your personal truth should free you, not bind you, and that once you find the keys that unlock your path, there is a flow that will feed you so that you continuously grow, not weaken. The right path for you will not feel like a burden. Quite the opposite, it will feel light, like your burdens have been lifted. You will feel limitless. You will bloom. And you, too, will feel free.
